Our mama passed away on the day that we were supposed to go clear the land. I can't even describe the shock and trauma it did to me and my family, my siblings and to all who loved her on her sudden passing.
That morning, she woke up early in anticipation of the day ahead. She must have been excited, as we found out later, she was preparing lunch to be packed for the day. But little did we know, God had other plans for her... the Angels took her that early morn. She had been attacked by an acute asthma.
In the kitchen, we later found boiled yam, rice, vegetable, fish...all packed nicely. Sometimes, one can't help but question God. But I take comfort God didn't let her suffer, took her away from the pains of the world. The Angels came like a thief. We know that one day that day of coming home to the Lord will come, but that only God knows when.
This reminds me of my cousin saying on his 60++ birthday when we wished him happy birthday through watsapp and his response was, "If age were to be measured in the length of a string, what's left over for me is very short indeed. But I heard that life in Heaven is a lot better.. so actually I look forward to that. If I be there earlier, I would throw roses on your paths to remind you all, that there is indeed a better place.. should that be so, I would indeed be a senior citizen there receiving you guys." Hehehe... haishhh..morbid.
And my other cousin responded "Life is a journey of adventures - some exciting and some not so, when the auld lang syne is sang at last, you would have lived, loved and laughed well. In the end it's the agape love that matters..For now, let's all live well, love deep and laugh often. Rejoice in the light of dawn, and pray for surcease from pain and sorrow at dusk..." Wow, that's deep and I was like "Ohh..oh.. blessed are ye of good faith."
But back to my mama.. After she passed on, we could not even mention the land without tearing up. Henceforth, we never did go to the land and we carried on with our respective life just holding on to her memory. On the back of my mind, our mama was constantly whispering, hey you all.. go and do something about the land. All that she had planted or cleared must have turned into a ghostly thick jungle.
So in October last year, we went randomly into the jungle.. armed with the Garmin instrument that detect stones on boundaries. We 6 of us - my 2 brothers and 4 of us girls went into the thick jungle and came through hills and swampy areas. There was an area the jungle so thick and swampy, trees so big full of hanging vines, it was so dark inside - we called that patch the lost world!! Bitten by leeches, mosquitoes, we also worried about snakes and poisonous plants, wild animals and bees.. That was frightening but our excitement over came all those obstacles!
my nine-year old nephew trying to plant some seeds...
That morning, she woke up early in anticipation of the day ahead. She must have been excited, as we found out later, she was preparing lunch to be packed for the day. But little did we know, God had other plans for her... the Angels took her that early morn. She had been attacked by an acute asthma.
In the kitchen, we later found boiled yam, rice, vegetable, fish...all packed nicely. Sometimes, one can't help but question God. But I take comfort God didn't let her suffer, took her away from the pains of the world. The Angels came like a thief. We know that one day that day of coming home to the Lord will come, but that only God knows when.
This reminds me of my cousin saying on his 60++ birthday when we wished him happy birthday through watsapp and his response was, "If age were to be measured in the length of a string, what's left over for me is very short indeed. But I heard that life in Heaven is a lot better.. so actually I look forward to that. If I be there earlier, I would throw roses on your paths to remind you all, that there is indeed a better place.. should that be so, I would indeed be a senior citizen there receiving you guys." Hehehe... haishhh..morbid.
And my other cousin responded "Life is a journey of adventures - some exciting and some not so, when the auld lang syne is sang at last, you would have lived, loved and laughed well. In the end it's the agape love that matters..For now, let's all live well, love deep and laugh often. Rejoice in the light of dawn, and pray for surcease from pain and sorrow at dusk..." Wow, that's deep and I was like "Ohh..oh.. blessed are ye of good faith."
But back to my mama.. After she passed on, we could not even mention the land without tearing up. Henceforth, we never did go to the land and we carried on with our respective life just holding on to her memory. On the back of my mind, our mama was constantly whispering, hey you all.. go and do something about the land. All that she had planted or cleared must have turned into a ghostly thick jungle.
We did, after nine long years! When we decided to do something about it, we had no idea where the boundaries began and ended. The thick foliage was daunting and there wasn't any resemblance of it's previous state.
We managed to have it cleared after a lot of challenges. To think that about 5 months ago, it was still a jungle. We did think of hiring a surveyor to re-do the boundaries but it was too costly. So we decided to try do it ourselves. We were in luck as my brother had some knowledge and experience about jungles, being educated in Agriculture related.
Taking a breather and studying the map and bitten by mosquitoes same time..
.. through swampy areas..bitten by leeches..
the cleared land
We were saying, our mama and papa must be looking down at us from up there and smiling proudly... hahaha. As of now, we have planted several fruit trees.. durians, rambutans, lemon, avacado, sour soup, mango, jackfruit and lots more. The guys are currently making a small house or a hut for us to take refuge on.
..my sista and the lemon tree..
..the youngsters helping in the planting of fruits..
This has become our Sunday activities. Our kids from the eldest to the youngest revel in this once a week activity. It not only help us till the land but have made the bonds of our families stronger.
..dukung langsat planted by Yours Truly..
It was one of those Sundays while we were trying to pluck some of the cempedak that grew in the land that we heard this strange bird. It was unlike any bird that just sang their meaningless tune. It must have been our imagination, but this particular bird kept repeating - singing or saying something so clearly, our hairs stood on end! My brother tried to 'talk' to the bird playfully against our protest! We later remember that whenever my brother repeated what it sounded like, it stopped like as if it was listening and in 'conversation'. My sisters and I admonished my brother for being 'naughty' fearing that it was some sort of bad spirit!! haha
Guess who is in white...see the long knife or parang.... don't play play..hahaha
the cempedak tree..
That night our mama appeared in my sister in law's dream. (She wasn't with us at the land that time and she didn't know about our encounter with the bird the previous day). Our mama supposedly said that she was very happy that we did something about the land and she said that she was always with us during those visits but in a form of a bird!
Google pic
Strange and unbelievable!! Then we recalled the strange encounter with the bird! Really uncanny and difficult to believe. It was probably a coincidence but we like to believe that it was real, that our mama was really with us but as a bird!.
The following week, we all went to the particular tree in the hope of encountering that phenomenon again...but the bird never came. We never saw or hear of it again. Oh, there were several other birds, but none of that strange little bird.
Mama rest in peace, don't worry about us. We are doing ok.
my nine-year old nephew trying to plant some seeds...
dear Angie,this is a really touching post frm u..so sad..I lost my father when i was 15.and he always came in my dream, just stood there looking without a word..I cried for days and days.and now when my siblings are doing fine in their lives we always wish he is here to watch this.but God knows better Angie, we can only pray and carry out our daily duties like gd people..the way our parents want us to be..
ReplyDeleteU tk cr my flawless friend..
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DeleteMy dear IndaMarya
DeleteI am so sorry about your loss too. I too lost my father at around that age. I was the eldest and my mom wasn't working. We were poor and so being the eldest, part of the responsibilities to be the breadwinner of the family was expected and I did too without questions. My mum singlehandedly brought the 8 of us. It was hard losing her and we wanted to do so much for her.
I agree with you, now that we are ok, how we wish that they are still around to watch and also witness their grandkids some of whom are quite successful in life.
You take care too dear..hugs
But your parents must be feeling so happy seeing all your siblings are still so close to each other.
ReplyDeleterainfield61
Deleteyes, that is one of the good thing that came out of this. I hope they are happy.. :)
Hi Angie, regret read of your great loss. Somehow the loss of a parent, especially a mother will be with us everyday.
ReplyDeleteAnd I being a buddhist believe in that bird visiting you.
Yours is not the first one I've read about a strange incident re the bird.
I had a friend, a month after his mom passed away, a beautiful female puppy walked into his house. It had somehow crawled underneath a tiny opening...only he and immediate family members know off, more a tear in the fence.
They checked around, nobody admitting to having lost a puppy. They kept the dog.
Love the pics of your ladang. I have always loved the jungle. I think its beautiful, the bird sounds, the solitude and silence...
And being away from the maddening crowds.
And fruit trees galore too.
Lucky you, now having your own 'wild country'. For picnics and to grow fruit trees, whatever.
Have fun, and watch those snakes!
Lee.
Hi Lee
Deletethanks for the words of comfort. Our mother singlehandedly brought us up when my dad passed away when I was in my teens. So we really felt our mother's loss as she was our mum and dad.
We like to believe too that that bird was her visiting. Very strange yet so comforting too.
Ahh the ladang pics..yes love it too. Yes the jungles are peaceful, fres clean air, wide spaces, blue skies, mountains, streams, birds and I especially love looking the new plants growing. Yes, indeed, it is like a picnic every Sunday..
Eeekk..except for creepy crawlies, especially snakes!! So far no snakes but lizards and caterpillars yes. yikess
Take care Lee and thanks for dropping by.
Angie
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ReplyDeleteThank you Sis for this lovely touching post.
RIP Inah.
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Thank you sis...(something wrong with my blog comment) I had to copy and paste here.. sorry kio.
Lovely Angie, what an inspiring N3, an eye opener for all with regards to family bondage. The bond that a child develops with his mother can never be severed. You grew as an organism inside her for nine months. She carried you and sustained you, sharing her sustenance with you through your umbilical cord. When you are born the cord is severed. It is never severed in her heart. That bond lasts forever. As we grow up we become our own people and may come to forget that woman who nurtured and loved us. But remember this, she will never forget you and never stop loving you.In many traditional cultures, fathers and mothers would pray for a boy who would be able to help in the field. In these cultures, the value of daughter was not understood. A father has a special relationship with his daughter as she will judge all men by his standard. A mother's task is to show her daughter the complex task of growing into a woman. Lovely Angie, we no longer live in an agricultural society and woman are free to accomplish intellectually and occupationally what they couldn't in the past. I am sure you now know,that a daughter may one day play the role of mother,wife and that raising a daughter is an infinite gift. God Bless and thank you for sharing......Uncle AL.
ReplyDeleteDear Uncle Al,
ReplyDeletethank you so much for that lovely words of wisdom. I am so touched and appreciate it very much. Indeed, the bond with mother and child can never be severed eventhough how far or separated they may be. Sometimes we forget and take mothers for granted. My greatest regret was not showing enough how grateful we were to my mother and father. While they were around, we always thought they would be around for a long time yet. How wrong we were. And so, the least we can do is to be united and hold on their memories, cherish and take care of the heritage that they left behind and make stronger the bonds of the families.
Thank you for dropping by, God bless and take care.
Angie
Very touchiñg story and you are blessed with great writing skills.
ReplyDeleteIt's such a blessing that you and your siblings are very close together. Mom and dad must be proud up there.
Love the fruit too. Cempedak is one of my favourites
Hi de engineur
ReplyDeletethanks for that compliments re writing skills.
I always admire and envious of those who write well, you included hehe.
Yes, I guess we are lucky that we siblings are close-knitted. Touchwood, but we hardly ever quarrel except those days when we were kids. When any of us are in trouble, we are very sure that the rest would be there for us. I guess this must have been something to do with how our parents brought us up. I hope it doesn't change and will rub-off to our children and the rest of the generations.
Too bad, the cempedak is almost off season now..but we sure had fun taking them.
Hi Angie, sorry I'm late in visiting. Excellent posting, 2 thumbs up for you. It's good that your whole family can be so cooperative and gather together. So envy see your whole family together.
ReplyDeleteNice ladang...in no time all of you will have plenty of harvest to enjoy. It's good for weekend family gathering to plant fruits, etc... and same time treat it as a family picnic trip. Plenty of fresh fruits from the trees too. :))
The bird is very uncanny and strange but I do believe such encounter cos I'd experience it myself when my FIL pass away.
Got to go.... see you again.
Have a wonderful Easter and nice weekend. Take care. With hugs to you.
Hi Amelia, oh no worries and thanks for dropping by. I can see from your blog how busy you are hehe..apart from your day to day activities I imagine. Being busy is good though and I'd always treat such problem as a 'happy' problem..hehe. Even if there's no work to be done, there's always something to occupy..reading or searching for info...whatever and before you know it, the day is gone haha...
ReplyDeleteYes, so glad that we took the task of 'waking up' the land again. Wished we'd done it sooner. But late is better than never I supposed. And we sure have fun every weekend and marvel at how the trees grow so fast.
I've heard of several people encountering a phenomenon about a visit by the spirit of the late beloved but have never experienced it until then.
Ok, take care, happy Easter to you too and a lovely weekend.
Hugs..xox
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